| Cujo with the Yotes. 'Enough said.
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Hey guys. I'm gonna type for a bit if that's alright, but most of it
will be emotional crap cuz I've just had enough of everything and
almost everyone lately. I've been with Cracker Barrel for a year now
[actually on the 14th, but close enough] and I've got a lot of things I
enjoy. I buy almost everything I own now. I love my parents. I love my
brother. The problem comes when my brother is a dick. We all know he is
and he cares about no one, but himself. When I say no one.. I mean, he
has no respect for my parents. Tonight everything has gone wrong. I
found my epiphone broken under my bed. My brother has given me so much
shit. All I want is to be left alone some times. I'm packing everything
I have and placing it in my bedroom downstairs so no one can touch any
of it. I'm mentally at the point that there's nothing left. I'm not the
kind of person who will hurt myself. I couldn't bare any pain on my
parents or friends. I'm not a person who gets depressed or upset all
the time.
I'm tired of being lazy and fat. I'm holding myself back from being
able to have fun by not exercising or by not eating healthy. All that
is going to change and I mean it this time.Something has jolted me
inside and has made me see things differently. I now know life isn't a
game and it's not something to slack around with. I want to play hockey
and baseball and I'd love to play soccer again.
I want a new car and I want to fix my computer. I'm going to work as
much as possible and do my best at what I'm working as. I want to break
all my bad habits. I know a lot of it is traditional Brandon Johnson
material, but I can't go on like this right now. I want to get closer
with Angela and hopefully, in time, ask her to further our friendship.
I want to hold someone in my arms and know that who I'm holding is
sharing the same feeling through the embrace. I haven't been too crazy
about any girl lately, but this one has me hooked and wanting more.
We'll see..
I am now working on the grill at Cracker Barrel. I can't actually cook
yet, but I can dip vegetables and use the fryers [not allowed to do
that either, but still do]. The Barrel has become a part of my life and
even if it might not lead me to my goals in life, I appericate and
enjoy what the company has given me so far. It has opened up new doors
for me.
I still enjoy gaming also. Gaming is another large part of my life. I
honestly believe I won't be gaming so much as of right now because I
have a lot going on and I want more going on. I won't be using the
computer has much and I won't be sitting around my house doing nothing.
Time is flying by and there's a whole world I'd love to visit.. even if
it starts by driving to walmart and back with Jake. I'd like to learn
how to draw to help my artistic abilities with PS and other editing
devices.
I know I'm being all serious tonight guys and I want it to be that way because I want you to know I'm not joking or kidding.
To all my friends: I love you all. I never want to lose any of you and
I'm glad that many of you have been there for me when I need you most.
Now it's lyrics time:
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I'll give you one good tiny reason I think you could believe it
I'll give you one good tiny reason I think you could see through it
I'm not the kind of man that thinks the truth could hurt me
I'm not the kind of man that thinks the truth can see me
You know a little bit goes a long way
You know a little bit lasts a long time
And the time has come to undo the wrong I've done
I am a grieving man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a guilty man
And I can't believe the things I've done to you
I give you one good tiny reason to push that big suit too far
I give you one good tiny reason to smash him and his big car
Everybody thinks I'm blue and what everybody thinks is true yeah
I just can't keep it inside
So you think it's you
So you think it's true
You know a little bit lasts a long time
You know a little bit goes a long way
And the time has come to undo the wrong I've done
And I am a grieving man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a beaten man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
And I am blood-soaked man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a guilty man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
And I am a grieving man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
I am a beaten man
I can't believe the things I've done to you
(unintelligible gibberish)
I've tried to pray
I've tried to pray
I've tried to pray
Yes I will give it a shot
Yes I will give it a shot
Yes I will give it a shot
Shot
Shot"
~ 'Captain Bligh' by Filter
Goodnight guys.
-Brandon
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| Today started out pretty well. Zach and I took Nicole's parking spot
with much love of course. Thedy and myself pwned everyone in Uno also.
My first time playing and I won 2/3 of the games. It's amazing how
badly you can cheat in that game also. French was alright, though I
don't fully understand the class. It's almost like programming except I
actually retain some things in programming. Not much happened doing
school, but all AFTER school. Hockey sons! mmm... So I head to Zach's
house to check out the cutlass which I'm really interested in buying.
It's not the greatest, but it will work until I can buy a new truck or
a BMW. I have my heart set on a BMW. Dunno why... *shrug*. We shot the
puck a bit and I'm rusty, but I'll gain it back quickly. Spilled some
tea, watched Bader Santa and then I talked to the lady on the phone. :)
She's uber tasty.
Okay okay. So I condensed everything into one little bam-can for ya. Enjoy it cuz you're only getting one spoon full. Pe@ce.
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